What happens in that hole I fall into? It feels like a hole because I can’t really see out of it. I am too far in.
Am I supposed to question this hole? Even though this is how I perceive my reality? To question my perception of reality is to have a high hope that I can somehow alter my reality. This is a difficult concept when one is feeling weighed upon.

If I am sunken in a hole, does it follow that I had been above ground beforehand? Like floating? Because it has been postulated that if you are on solid ground, you are less easily disturbed than if you are in an excited or ecstatic place. You have the best perspective if you are in a central position, rather than on one end or the other; the futility of existing on the edges of the spectrum is more easily seen.

Because if I try getting myself out of my hole in hopes of bouncing back to a flying euphoria, is it not possible I am again setting myself up for another crash and burn (bury)?

originally published on 3/9/09