I am still working on the whole mind, body, heart thing. It’s frustrating. I seem to be so utterly conditioned to cut myself off from one or more of them. But even when I make a deliberate effort to be in touch with them, I am realizing it is not enough because they are divided among themselves. They don’t function properly that way.
I guess I spend the majority of my time either actively or passively cutting myself off from myself. It is just by habit. People who don’t do this seem like aliens to me.

I believe I wouldn’t be so confused so often if I had that knack for integration. It would not only reflect on the cello.

originally published on 8/20/07