Geographical fix. It’s fairly ridiculous to think of how much of my life depends on geography. Of course I’m not exclusively talking about my exterior life. My inner moods and reactions are deceptively connected to my surroundings and my proximity to the people who fill up my past and present (and future, even if only in fantasies). It’s also hard to keep track of the morphing that takes place when I travel. Sometimes I travel to visit one person, or to distance myself from another, but it’s easy to overshoot your target and end up too close or too far away from the persons in question.

I can also be duped (upended) when I travel for business or tourist reasons. A particular environment or city can bring up feelings and recollections that end up affecting my dreams and bent. There’s that old cliche, no matter where you go, there you are. That’s what’s so deceptive about geographical fixes. Your intertwined souls have their own needs and reasons, regardless of surroundings.

originally published on 8/13/09